My Desire, My Wish, My Imagination and My Bloody Thoughts

Life Changing Earth Moving Moments

2006-11-20T16:40:00.000+08:00

I have not been able to remember this site at all until i logged into it to check some stuff. How often we live a wonderful live without trouble when we have stated our problems somewhere. This is where mine lies.

As of now, my life been derailed from good track to bad to good so many times that i have given up to keep myself dated on how it was to be a kid. until my kid show me.

Some quiet time with the force

2005-08-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

the last time i ended up with the police was when i was stupid enuff to follow a friend to steal a bicycle...that was dumb. I ended up 24 hours with teh local police lockup knowing people i should not have.

until recently, i was again up with the force due to my stupid drink driving. i had stop drinking for like 5 months or less, until that particular week, i was drinking cuz i thought of drinking. I ended up being summon for drink driving and without bail. i was in the police station, not lockup this time cuz i am not a criminal.

Until 9am, they drove me to the local civil court and was fined RM 1200.
fuck them, fuck the system that created no bail cuz they were too fucking lazy.

I was thinkin, thieves, muderer can bail at a certain amount of money, i here caught drink driving, can't bail myself.

their only reason to me was, " semua orang bail, esok hari tak pergi court" (everyone that claim bail never show up in court)
fuck them..i am not them, i am not that somebody never show up in court, for sake of goverment, that's what you fuckers got the job in the first fucking place...to get warrant and arrest them...if i skip the court, get a warrant, arrest me
but it did not happen, and assumption can get you into trouble SARJEN ISMAIL !!!

there....i am relax now

Future of our children is gone

2005-08-10T16:02:00.000+08:00

when you wake in the morning, instead of seeing a beautiful sunrise, you see haze and is choking your lungs and suffocating your children.

this is our future,

open burning is banned, by logic or by law. What don't thy understand that when thy burn something in the open, say log or rubbish, it will fucking scrotch the fucking ozone layer. incase you retards can't understand the word OZone, it means, protective layer, like your thick skull, if i keep a steady light to your fucking skull, your skull will crack eventually, !!!

fuck , what next ? raining non stop and cause new landscape to emerge ? china will grow larger, and malaysia shrunk to peanuts ? good then....fuck the bumiputra benefits when ur fucking benefits is 50000 fathom below sea.

when u will realise that us humans are merely worker ants with abit of intellegence and we can choose what to bring back, but eventually, we bring back to the queen,

queen is not ur DUH, queen, but Mother EArth. and she's dying, cuz she had inbreds like us and we're fucking her turf up real bad....

fuck the world

Screaming future

2005-07-13T06:05:00.000+08:00

I quit my day job as an Account Manager. I have spend 3 years servicing. Have I serviced enough people to fortitude my future. Sigh, I have not

I'm use to hearing my elders telling me their days of saving money. Although the fundamental instruction is clear, but execution of it is harder by 10 on 21st Century.

I have no intention to rob but i will if i have to work day and night and yet still not enough to feed the goverment of their needs.

I will work my future step by step, but can anyone please tell the bully to stop bringing it down

we can no longer hear the voices telling us to move faster or grow stronger, we can only wish the screaming is silenced.

How many times i have look around the world to find my place is not in this world. how many times leaders of the world is trying to tell us we are dying from their promises.

My elders will see me perish as how their elders have. we still have no gotten the message tru to our children clearly, maybe we never will.

Soundless Scream and loudness in silence

2005-06-15T10:56:00.000+08:00

Do you feel at times when everyone need to hear you shout but nothing comes out and instead you shout too loud when everyone need you to be silent ?

Don't we all need a automatic recorder build into our system ? So we can record those people we love's voices and play them back again and again when they are not here.

Or we can record an argument so that we can play back and see who made the mistake first and how to amend them.
Or record thoughts and dreams so we can play it for the whole world to see.
maybe record sadness to be thrown away, record happiness to be kept in a safe.

If only we spend time practicing our mind to do such thing, and not waste so much effort in designing technology to be obsolete in every 6 months.

In another time, with another face, same place same taste

2005-06-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

Wish I was born in another time. Maybe some of my funny Ideas would be useful there. Maybe I can have what I always wanted. Do the things I always wanted to do and not be weird to anyone.

Wish I was born at the different place with also a different face. What's the use of having same face as today? . Then maybe I can do different things with different faces and get a feel how faces can change someone's life.

So to travel around looking like nobody, and throughout times where u can be anybody, that would just be ecstasy.

Just wish that I can remember what I looked like after traveling so many places with so many faces, sometimes is best just to be me :)

2005-06-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Tree of life with fruits on the side

2005-05-25T11:03:00.000+08:00

I wish I can grow this huge tree that bear fruits of the world, or anything that's fruity or veggie or roots like ginseng or stuff like that.

It should have a very soft glow at night and gave out soothing fragrance that induce either sleep, appetite or help one absorb anything they wish.

It will grow to a length where everyone in this world can grab a fruit and stay for a chat. All of it's fruits can be consumed to the core, seeds are edible raw and stems are good for health. No waste, no pollution.

The leaves of this tree can be brewed into healing teas that cleanses your soul and regenerate your confidence.

Roots of this tree can erase unwanted memories.
Barks from this tree can mend broken hearts.

Kids will be safe dancing around this tree, everyone is forgiven standing next to the Tree, everyone is regconised.

This is after all, Tree of life.

Desire to live life well

2005-05-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

Do anyone wish to be born old ? start your first job as boss, get some time off work, and when in your prime, buy a BMW ? what kind of ads is that ?

I wish i was born at my prime, get my first job as the boss, work at my own timeline, get rich, get handsome, get fit, no disease at all, not even flu or fever, experience life to the fullest, no regrets, dance around with people i love, buy a BMW? buy all BMW !!! and NEVER GET OLD !!!

Desire to control

2005-05-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

I would like to have a small remote control that i can point at any objects i desire and it will either fast forward or rewind.

If i break any stuff i can rewind it, if anything bores me i can fast forward. only applicable to non living objects as living stuff is abit of a hassle and against his LAW of creation.

Things in fast forward
1. Bank Account for it's interest
2. Carbons for diamonds (money again)

Things in rewind
1. accidents
2. natural disasters.

:)

Super Ego

2005-05-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

I wish i have a mechanical something. maybe like a super memory storage in my brain that i can upgrade, maybe a lighthing fast legs i can run, or super strong arms i can bend stuff with.

I wish i can walk on water or run the sky, fly a little to the moon, dance around in clouds and catch dreams when people's sleeping.

Everyone in this world is in need of a super hero, maybe god heard it wrong and gave us all super Ego, peppered all around our workplace, social groups and our own sanity self.

Until that super day come, i will be awake waiting

Divine Desire

2005-05-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

I always have this desire to view through other people's eyes. To see what they see, hopefully to feel what they felt. I always wanted to know, how I would be at their eyes, how Green the world is from their view.

From that, i might improve myself to be better, nicer and lot more productive if i know what they feel and what they have seen.